Just like at the beginning of a new year, the beginning of my summer gives me a chance to consider how the first few five months have gone, and recalibrate my trajectory if I've gone a bit off track. While it was a successful Spring semester, I do wish I would have spent more time with God. Those of you who know me know that at the end of my life, I want to be able to say that I relied on Him and followed His lead above all, instead of doing things my way and based on my whims. But my tangible actions have to reflect that choice. This is my Grand Experiment of Faith. Right now, the questions I keep coming back to are: Is it possible for me, Sameer, to be called a friend of God? Can I get to a place where when He sees me, He is able to say that I chase after His own heart? And, is there a chance that I can be so intimately linked up to Him that He shares with me things that He reserves for only a select few? I think so. I mean, why Abraham and not me? Why David, and not me? And why shouldn't I chase after that possibility, if it is there for me to seize, for us to seize? But are these things even real, and worth pursuing? I mean, pursuing as if they were palpable, attainable things - as much as I've pursued a college degree, or romantic love, or healthy living? I am tired of everything in my life that doesn't fully satisfy, doesn't truly satisfy, doesn't endlessly satisfy. And there are lots of good things here for me to enjoy: → a hot cup of tea on a leisurely morning → gourmet jellybeans → my favorite sports teams → success in my work → intimacy with my wife But I still want more. And I don't think it's about me being content with what I have. Instead, I think it's about what St. Augustine wrote in his Confessions: "You have formed us for Yourself, and our hearts are restless till they find rest in You." I get weary and burdened sometimes, and Jesus promises me rest. I scramble and grasp for something - anything - to fill me up and satisfy me completely, and Jesus promises me life to the fullest. But He makes clear that these things demand and depend on a deep, bi-directional relationship with Him. I've been there - so very close to Him, walking in step, feeling as if I were the apple of His eye, and being fully satisfied by that relationship with no other need or want. I've been there multiple times in my life. And I really want to get back. So I'm getting after it this summer. The days keep slipping by. Frankly, the decades keep slipping by. There is no better time than the present. And I don't think there is a more noble endeavor in which I can spend my time than this. Again, nothing else works. Nothing else even comes close. I know it. You know it. The cool thing is, something tells me - deep down - that I won't be disappointed.